Tuesday, January 31, 2012

I just want to cry....

My life sucks...
I feel Im getting no where...
I'm depressed, and angry.
Nothing seems to matter.
I'm losing interest in things I once loved.
I feel ugly...
Unconfident.
I wanted to go outside today...
I feel sinful and spiritually sick,
And,
Tiger is not talking to me...

I hope tomorrow gets better...




Thursday, January 26, 2012

These tired eyes just want to remain closed...



I've been feeling off lately... I think I'm still getting used to working late every night, and just long days in general. But don't get me wrong, I am LOVING going to Francis Tuttle in the morning from 8 to 11 and then working at the bank full time from ll:30 till 7. It's such a wonderful and fun job, and the hours are really great cause I desperately need the money. lol! I'm just so tired lately for some reason, and I feel also just spiritually tired and sick too. I think I need some good long time in prayer and a quiet time. I actually think I just need some alone time too. 0-0 Some times it just feels like life gets so busy ya know?... I feel like I'm always constantly going going going. I'm barely outside anymore. And I mean I know its cold, but some times I just want to go outside, and feel the wind on my face; or go for a nice long walk. I'm never really home anymore either. :/ Weekends are really the only time I can sort of have a break and breathe a bit it seems. Anyone else feeling like life has gotten so much more busy lately? @_@ Any ways. I hope everyone is having a great week. I can't wait till our next girls day. ^^

Oh, and I already told Meghan this, but I really want to start fashion blogging and getting into Fashion Photography. :) I'm currently along with some other things saving up for a nice camera. My little pink camera sort of well... sucks to say the least. haha! I'd really like to have a nicer camera to take better pictures. ^^
Haha, yes, so as of now I'm saving up for a new computer, a cintiq drawing tablet, photoshop CS5, and a nicer camera. LOL! XD I know it's a lot, but I think they will all benefit in my career in the future. :) Oh and I can't wait to show you all the final animation project I've been working on with my group at Francis Tuttle. It's so cute! haha! I'll probably be able to show you all of it in about 2 weeks I think. haha! Everyone in the group is sopost to get a copy on a CD, so I'll show you all once I get that CD. lol!

So 365 days is going pretty good too. :D I've been drawing everyday and its starting to get easier. :D I'm really loving drawing more and more everyday. I'm still 5 days behind but I'll catch up! >:D This weekend for sure I will catch up. I'll try and post some art this weekend too. ^_^

Any way, I'd better wrap this up, got to get ready for bed. Goodnight and God bless. Thanks everyone out there who reads my blog. It means a lot to me. ^_^




Sunday, January 15, 2012

Faith without Works is Dead

This was the outfit I wore to church today. ^^ The sermon was really good, it was about how just having faith is not good enough as a Christian. You need to show your faith through works too. So many times people will say, yeah I believe in God, but then their actions dont back it up. They aren't serving God, or trying to live the life style he wants them too. I do this from time to time too... I just get so comfortable where I'm at, but never try to go out of my comfort zone to try and witness to people more... I really want to work harder on this, on showing my faith in Jesus Christ not only through my faith in him, but through my actions as well. :)






I got this lovely green dress last night from Goodwill! Have I ever mentioned before that I LOOOVVVEEE Goodwill! lol! You can always find such amazing treasures there! Seriously! Last night not only did I find this dress I found that scarff too! I also found one other oriental dress that is really pretty, a black pair of dress shoes which I can wear to the bank, a snowflake bracelet, an amazing poncho, a gorgeous jewlery box, and some CD's! Yeah I still cant believe I found it but I found the FF9 soundtrack! I like freaked out! It doesn't have all the songs on it, but it has the main ones, and even a bonus track that was taken out of the game, which I had never heard before! :D and I found a pretty CD with disney classics but redone into piano versions, and well haha! I thought it was a good find, I found Utadah Hikaru's new CD called Exodus. It looks like it'd be an awesome CD, but when I listened to it... the lyrics are terrible, like vulgar! 0.0 yeah!! Idk what to do with the CD now.... -__- lol! oh wells I might just cut out the pictures acleast. lol! if anyone wants the CD let me know! XD anyway! yeah! lol! I LOVE Goodwill. ^^ haha. Ok. I'll wrap this up. I hope you all have a great rest of the weekend.

Sincerly Cheryl

Heres some more pics! and and please listen to the song at the end!! :DDD






This is seriously my new favorite song of the month! I love it, I can't stop listening to this amazing song!!! *__*

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

I want some ice cream...

I want ice cream... drizzled with sweet rich hot caramel dripping down like lava around white vanilla scoops, and sprinkled with reese’s pieces... yes... *___* that is what I want... ;__;

Lol, the Daniel Fast is really hard!! I want sweets, I want food that will actually fill me up. I want cheese and dairy! I’m hungry all the time. :( booo! lol. Only like 3 and half weeks... -__- How's everyone else doing? Im so proud of you gals! Don’t give up, we are almost half way there! And since I was bad and ate meat at the Christmas party, I’m extending my fast an extra day to make up for it.

So my official last day at the day care is the 20th. I can't believe I will be leaving. Its like a bitter sweet feeling. I’m scared to leave and sad to leave the kids and all the workers that have become some of my close friends, my two bosses, and a couple of the other girls there I’m going to miss a lot. But I'm happy I will still be able to visit since the bank is near by. Even though I am sad to leave the day care, I am a bit excited for change in my life. I think it will be good for me. I’m just still feeling scared and anxious, but I think that might be normal with any new job.

I went in for some training today at the Bank, and it's really confusing. 0.0 There is soooo much I need to know and learn. I don’t even know where to start. I just hope they will give me time to learn everything well before I have to start actually helping customers. lol. But even though its hard I'm going to try my best and just try to take everything in a little at a time.

So it's also back to school for everyone. I love Francis Tuttle. It's going really well, and we are working on an animation project that I cant wait to show everyone once it's complete. ^^ I hope everyone else's classes are going good. Love you all, sorry I haven't been posting as much lately. I've been so busy. :( But I'll try harder to post more often! Any way I'll wrap this up. Hope you all have a great rest of the week! ^_^

Sincerely Cheryl





Monday, January 2, 2012

If we work hard, do our best, and with God's help, we will suceed. :)

So its the second day of the daniel fast and 365 days project, and everything is going really well so far. I have actually been loving all the food Ive been eating. Veggie burgers are soooo delicious!! I love them! and I have been craving sweets, but knowing I have such a big accountability group really helps me keep going and not giving in. :) and its really been a big blessing that my mom is doing it with me as well. :) And 365 days... Its going to be tough, I actually almost forgot about it yesterday because I was sick all day, but at like 10 o'clock last night I remembered and drew two quick drawings. :) I just have to get in a pattern and routine so I dont forget a single day. I'm so proud of you gals for doing so well on the Daniel fast too! I'll be praying for ya ladies! ;) we can do this, and Im so happy it will be a time we can all grow closer to God too. ^^ Oh! and by the way ladies! Dont forget its a new year and you know what that means??? Time for a new art binder and art binder decorating!! I was thinking we can decorate them again this year at the Christmas party if you all are up for it. ^^ Or we can just plan another time. Either way I can't wait! Its so much fun! yay! :D Any way, I'll wrap this up. Love you all! ^_^

This is the shoe box I will be putting all my 365 days drawings/ photography in. :D I had fun painting it. hehe! X3

And I thought this was a really neat idea to do too! :D I have a lot of old journals that I haven't used yet, I might make one into a 365 days thankful journal! :D