Fun Photo Taking Time! :D

I finally had some time to take some photos today. I miss being to dress up more in my comfy clothes. At the bank I cant wear any jeans or hats whats so ever. T^T I really miss wearing jeans! So weekends are really the only time I can wear them now. :( Ahhh I can't wait to get a new camera! But I can't get one until I save up for a new computer. GAhh! lol! Someday some day! >< I really love photography, hehe, Meghan has sparked my interest in it, and I can't wait to give it a real try some day. ^^

Any way, Im going to enjoy today to the fullest! Going to get some laundry done, and am going to drink tea and read some more of the Hunger Games! yes! hehe! well any way, I hope you all have a lovely rest of your Sunday. I'll post another blog again soon. Take care everyone. ^_^

I feel so refreshed! :D

Yesterday since it was a holiday, I had off from the bank. It was soooo nice to have a day off work. I didn't realize how much I needed and wanted a day off. I literally spent the whole day after Francis Tuttle, reading, drawing, and watching Vampire Knight. LOL!! No joke, I watched Vampire Knight practically all day, from episode one since I had forgotten a lot of what happened. lol! but yeah! I got to episode 12 XD haha! And Im going to watch more tonight after work. It's just so addicting!!! ahhh it was just so relaxing to to have time to watch anime. I just sat there while brushing my hair and eating chocolate. lol! mmm... Kaname and Zero.. so handsome haha! XD

So I'm so excited, in about two more paychecks I can finally get a new computer! Im thinking a big screen imac. >< Its going to be a lot of money, but this will be a really good computer for school. I'm thinking of putting it in my room when I get it, so I'm going to start looking for a good desk too, perhaps at yard sales or something. :D and I'll have to get rid of that little white one in my room XD which I will sell at our little Akon garage sale! :D yay! though I will have no where to put my sewing machine. ;_; sigh... but do you think its wrong to spend this much money on myself... I've never bought myself something so expensive before in my life. :( it makes me feel kind of bad... when I think about there are kids who don,t even have shoes on there feet, no electricity, and who probably have never even seen a computer before, and here I am buying a $1,800 dollar one... -__- yeah.... I know if I do get one though, I want to start putting more in church... because God has blessed me financially in order to even buy a new computer. and well he has blessed me financially in general. I want to give more... Oh! so I started the Hunger Games!! Its so sad and intense!! D: and I cant stop drawing fan art too for the Hunger games, I've already drawn Katniss like 3 times! lol! XD I just really like her character so far. I can't wait till the movie, I'm definitely going to make sure I have finished reading the book in time to go see it when it comes out next month! >:D

Oh, and also I wanted to tell you guys if your interested to go check out my Tumblr Blog. I post a lot of random fun stuff there, and also it has a link to my tumblr art blog if you interested as well so you can see any of my new art and doodles. lol! Thanks! Hope you all check it out! ^.^ Cher-Cher's Randomness

Well I'd better wrap this up! I miss you all! I can't wait to see you all when we go to the book fair this weekend! :D Oh and by the way, the Medieval Fair is coming up too, its on the weekend of March 30th. :D Wahh! so many things coming up! lol! @_@ and I'm gonna be 21 next month! Ahhh!! I'm thinking of having a tea party/poetry reading/anime night/ pizza party/ and just fun times! lol!! :D Let me know if you all have any ideas, we can also have it like a combined party for Andrew too since his birthday is so close to mine. ^^

Well um, haha! here's some pretty artz and photos that I love and wanted to share with you too! enjoy! hugs! hope you all have a lovey day and rest of the week. ^_^

Sincerely, Cheryl

A New Promise

So I decided to make a new promise and oath to myself and God today. I dont want to say what it is, because I just want it to I guess, be just between me and God. lol! XD But yeah... It's something that I have been really needing to work on in my life, and I think by keeping this promise to God and myself it will really help. :) It's going to be really hard, but I think in the end it will definetly help, and teach me a lot. At the end of the oath I'll tell you all what it was. lol!

So today started out kind of bad, then got good, then got worse, to terrible, then back too good. Well this morning, John got really sick around I think 5am he had really bad dihrea and idk how but it like got all over the carpet in the hallway. My mom woke me up at like 5:10 to tell me she was taking John to the hospital. Keep in mind, my mom just had the carpets cleaned last week... and well yeah... now there is poop all over it. Any way, so the morning started off bad. I fell back asleep then around 9:15 I got called into work becasue a guy who was sopost to come in couldn't get his truck to start. I had no problem going in though, I can always use more hours. :) When I got home I had the house to myself for almost the whole day. I had some tea, listened to music, I started sewing an Elven like dress made out of the extra material I used to make my Saria cosplay. It was hard and frustrating at times, but it felt good to work on something and to sew again. So it was a really relaxing afternoon to myself which was really nice. Around 6pm my mom got home. She seemed ok at first... but then she started getting really irritated at everything. She's sick of having to drive my Uncle to the VA Hospital all the time becasue she says it takes up most of her day, and its a long drive and takes up a lot of gas, so she was really irritated she had to drive him this morning and was upset because well, she just spent $150 to have the carpets cleaned then now there is dihera all over it... and I mean shes not mad at John, it was an accident he couldn't help it, he's really sick... but I think shes just sad upset and feels like John is a burden which I dont blame her... and well not only that, there is poop smeared everywhere in Johns room... on the bed, the sheets, the bed skirt, on the table, the carpet in his room, all on his clothes... she has to clean up all of that... and well it is really disgusting... and I mean I have to clean up after him too... there is always poop smeared on the toilet in my bathroom too... its really nasty. I'm sorry if I'm growsing you guys out. but yeah... sigh.... I feel really bad for my mom... I feel sad for her. I feel sad for John too, because he never seems to get better. I feel angry at myself for thinking this, but I am sick of the growsness too, cleaning up after him... I feel our house is all nasty and germy some times. :/ sigh... but any way, back to my mom, well just slowly everything just caught up to her and was making her angry, and like the tv was messing up, and she started yelling at me that I messed it up because I had played a video game that day. But that wouldn't have messed up the tv. -__- then I knew she was going to explode. She went into the kitchen and started yelling at me and throwing stuff around. I stood there not saying a word and just let her vent everything out on me... I'm not mad at my mom... its times like that I feel so bad for her... she really has a hard life, taking care of me and John... I feel like such a burden to her sometimes... I really need to move out soon I think... :( but yeah... I just feel really sad for my mom, she's so lonely and really wants to find someone, but all the guys she's met are well to say the least pigs, horny stupid old farts. ugh. And also on top of everything I think she's stressed about money. I mean, we aren't like dirt poor or anything, but we really aren't financialy stable, if something were to happen, we would be in big trouble... So anyway, I just let her vent it all out, then when she left the room I just started bawling... I cleaned up the kitchen like she wanted and stuff and then just stort of sat out in the kitchen for a while... Then randomly she called me into her room to watch a movie with her. She's very bipolar. lol But I know she wasn't really mad at me, she was just stressed and upset with life I guess. So we watched an old time movie together, it was nice. :)

I'm going to try harder to do more for my mom. Any way, I just wanted to get all that off my chest. Will you all pray for my mom and uncle please? thanks so much it would really mean a lot to me.

Sincerly, Cheryl

Sorry Everyone...

For the emo post the other day... I was just having a rough day, and the past couple of weeks just being rough in general. But I'm feeling better. I had some time to think yesterday, and I just talked to God, and then going to a bible study in the evening really helped too. I've been making lots of mistakes lately, I've been sinful, greedy, angry, depressed, I've been complaining a lot, I've been in want of material things, I've been jealous, I've been comparing myself and my life to other peoples, I've not been content with what I already have, I have not been thankful... But I'm going to work really hard on all of these areas in my life and really give them over to God. I'm getting rid of sin in my life, I'm handing it over to God, because I cant do this on my own. I need his help. Sometimes I just get in this weird mindset where I think I can do everything on my own... but I need Jesus more than anything.

But yeah, just wanted to apologize... My life doesn't suck. I have a blessed life. I love you all, thanks for always being there for me. I hope you all are having a great week.

Love, Cheryl