Am I fake??...

Some times I feel and worry that I'm fake... am I putting up a front, so people won't ask me what's wrong? Do I put up a smile so they think everything is fine?... but underneath Im angry and confused.. confused with myself... and life. My life... where is it going?... I am angry... angry at myself, for being jealous, not working harder, for comparing my imperfections to others... for not being good enough... I don't feel good enough.. will I ever feel good enough? Who is that girl I keep seeing in the mirror... I don't recognize her lately... :( When did cosplay, Legend of Korra, and work become more important than God? When did conventions and cosplay stop being as fun, and turn into stress and just putting myself down...? :( idk... I don't have answers to anything... but today I feel sad, ugly, and disappointed with myself...

Tokyo in Tulsa!!!!

Tokyo in Tulsa is coming up fast!!! I can't wait to start working on stuff!! I really want to work on a cool rave outfit. lol!! XD and really practice my shuffling!! I wanna get fabric for Officer Jenny and Gunner Yuna! I wanna work out every day! I wanna shuffle every day! I wanna draw everyday, read my bible, and work on some ideas I have for a furture job for myself. hmmm... so much to do, and TnT in less than 6 weeks!! GAHHHHHH!!!! X____X Gotta get my but into gear!!