So... um there is something I want to tell you all... I've been really drifting from God lately... like a lot... Ive been feeling so angry and moody lately. :( I decided not to go to church tonight but instead to stay home and do a bible study. So I read out of a book Dixie gave me a long time ago called, Beautiful in God's Eyes. I never really read the book much cause it was actually written for a married woman. 0.0 lol But any way, I opened the book up and what I turned to was a chapter titled, "An Eager Attitude" the verse of the chapter was Proverbs 31:17 "She girds herself with strength, and strengthens her arms." The whole chapter was about using our time wisely, having a commitment to work hard, and having willingness, motivation, and discipline to work hard an get stuff done. And then she talked about how to achieve these was to, Embrace God's will for your life, stay in God's word, develop a vision, tap into the why, pray for a eager attitude, create a schedule, and to develop a routine. Wahhhh the whole chapter was so amazing its hard to sum it all up. But basically it was exactly what I needed to hear. One of my biggest problems is dealing with how to use my time properly and to its fullest. I have been really slacking, being lazy and not really ever getting stuff done lately like I should be. I've been having such a passive attitude in everything lately it seems... I haven't been motivated at school, at work, or even in my social life, I've just been a blah... and it shows. Because I've had no motivation and disipline I don't make any plans, goals, commitments and I don't have a willingness to do anything. Its funny how fast and easy it is to lose sight of whats really important. :( I've been putting so many other things before God. And because of it all other areas of my life are suffering as well. I'm going to work harder, and use my time more wisely and to the fullest. Im going to try and motivate myself more, discipline myself more, and really work hard towards my goals. I want to be a better Christian, student, employee, daughter, and friend. At the end of the chapter it says this quote which I love because its so true!
And the deeds you hope to do
And the dreams which stir your soul-
Is you!
I'm going to work harder! Love you all so much! Sincerely, Cheryl ^_^
I love you, Cheryl!
ReplyDeleteI think we all get into ruts like these.. I'd say I'm in one now too. It's like constantly fighting against the tides of being burnt out by worldly things -- work, school, even social lives and events that are fun can burn us out without us realizing it. I find myself constantly busy, constantly going and planning, but still feel disorganized, not on time, burnt out, or easily set off and annoyed if things go wrong or not my way. But that Bible study is right -- setting routines, schedules and what not can really make hectic life seem less hectic. It gets the panic and disorganization out of the way so we can see and focus on what really matters.
I'm glad you posted this though -- it reminded me of what I need to be focusing on too, more important things right now than what I have been focusing on. :) I love you dear and can't wait to see you again soon <3 -hugggs-