I Want To Be There For You

I've been feeling really down lately and sad... I feel left out and out of the loop with everyone. I feel like a really crapy friend, and I know I haven't been there for all my friends like I should have been this whole past school year. I don't know when life got so busy for me, or when things started to change, when I changed, but they did... but really I guess I let it get that way... I chose to work at the job I'm at, I chose to take on the long hours, It's my fault. I made all the decisions in my life. But I want to make a change right now, I want to be a better friend, I want to be there for my friends. I want to be someone they can come to and talk to about anything, at any time of day. I'm going to work harder guys... Please forgive me for all the times I wasn't there when you needed me... please forgive me for not being the best friend I should have been, for not being honest or open with you about things. I love you all dearly, and I'm going to make a change today. Mattie, Meghan, Becky, Sable, I am really really truly sorry from the bottom of my heart. Love you all dearly like sisters.

Sincerely, Cheryl

The Journey Begins

I can't tell you much about this place... because I don't know what happened here... just one day the winds stopped, and then our way of life was over... These wheels have stopped turning, and the once rich soil I used to plow is now turned to ash beneath my feet. It's blistering hot, and I feel no peace in my bones. I can't stay here for long... I am the last, and I am lonely. I don't know what time it is, and I have lost track of the days. I've decided this is my last entry for now. I'm packing my belongings tonight, and I'm setting out to find the truth come mornings first light. I've never left this place, this is the only home I've ever known. I don't know what I will face once I step forth out of the valley. Dragons, wizards, thugs perhaps, or even more stranger mysteries than I can even fathom. I'm terrified, and I have packed a sword and a bow just in case. Though I pray I will never have to use them. I have little money, and even less food and water. Hoping to find a spring to refill up my jug soon. Once I take rest I will wright again. Take heart my friend journal, and wish me luck. May my pen meet your paper again... It is time to take action.
Sincerely, Basil Kairos

Will You Praise Your Lord?

Please listen to this song as you read this post. ^_^

There are often days when I'm driving to school that I look over at the beautiful sun rising. The clouds are pink and orange, and look like far off kingdoms... and out of no where I get this sudden urge to want to pull off the side of the road, to climb up on top of my car, turn and feel the warm sun shinning on my face, and I want to close my eyes for a moment then open them, raise my arms up high and just take time to praise God!!!! Praise him for all he's done for me, for the new day! The beautiful sunrise!!!!!!!! Life gets so busy.... that I don't even have time to do that... To praise God! :( Or I'm scared of, what if someone drives by and sees me worshiping on top my car? 0.o What will people think? Or what if I'm late for school?? Ugh!!! Seriously guys, one of these days I'm just going to do it! I'm going to pull off the side of the road, climb on top my car, and just do it!! Worship God!! Stop time and all worldly things just for even if its a few minutes... God deserves so much more than that. This song I found today... it really moved me as I sat listening to it in my room. I want to listen to this song when I pull off the side of the road. It reminds me of heaven and of life; and how important it is to praise God.

I've been feeling sad lately... because life just pulls me down so much sometimes that I just want to give up. On Wednesday I just cried in my car because I felt depressed and that I had no control over my life. And on top of it, that morning I woke up with a huge ugly cold sore on my lip. They take up to 14 days to go away, they are very painful, and usually cause scaring... so for the past few days I've been feeling really down and ugly... but on thursday I called in sick and took a day off for myself... because I just desperately needed it. It helped me a lot because it reminded me that I do have control of my life. I don't have to work at the bank, but I choose to. But anyway, just listening to this song today really inspired me to write this and share it with all of you. Life is hard some times, but always remember we have a God, a savior who loves us. We are his daughters, and he only wants good things for us. We need to trust in him and his timing. I'm thinking of getting a different job this summer that has less hours so I can start something I've been feeling called to do. It's a secret though, so I will share what it is with you all soon. ;) But I feel God starting to lead my down a new path. :) And I feel other things are opening up too. This year is going to be a year of change. It's scary, but maybe once I actually face those new things, it wont be so bad as what I make it out out to be in my head. :) Any way! I love you all, and you are all in my prayers. Don't give up my sisters in Christ! God has great things instore for those who love him.

Love you all! Sincerely your friend and sister, Cheryl. ^_^

Dream of a Pink Sunset And I'll Be With You

Hello lovelies! Sorry it's been a long time since a post! I miss you all dearly.... :( I wish we weren't all so busy... I feel like I never get to see you. :( How is everyone doing? Oh, and I have great news! I found out today I can go to Nakacon!!! They finally approved it. I was really getting worried there for a bit. >_< But yes! I can go! I'm so excited!!!! so I have some news though... haha.. ehehe.. well guess what, it turns out that my cousin, aunt and uncle live like 12 mins away from Nakacon! X_X yeah! haha! crazy right! well they want to see me, so my cousin is going to pick me up Sunday morning and take me to go to her church. :) I'll only be gone till probably noon... but still... thats time I'm missing out with you all... but I do want to see my cousin, aunt, and uncle, and I probably should definitely see them since I'm like right there. lol >_< and it will also be nice to go to church. :) But yeah... just wanted to tell you all that.

Any ways! haha, other than that hm.... nothing to new in my life... except one thing... << *shifts eyes back and forth* Tiger took me to get my ring size!!!!! D: Yeah!! I don't know what that means!!! I don't know if he's gonna propose soon or something! I really have no idea! It's crazy to think about!! but wow.... if he really did ask me.... I'd say yes. =^.^= I would... I love Tiger so much. I'd be scary and a lot of new changes might be happening within the next year or so... but I think I'd be ready to face it all with Tiger. :) Is that crazy? Do you think I'm too young, or that we should wait? >_< I mean even if he did propose we probably wouldn't get married for another year or so. So... it definitely wouldn't be anytime soon. But yeah... just wondering what you all thought about it. But haha no worries, it may not mean anything, he may not even pop the question for quite a while. lol! XD So we will see..! <<

Any ways!!! Oh man... guys... I love instagram!! Why haven't I used this sooner! It's so fun for documenting stuff in my life, and it also helps me keep in touch with yall, I can see what you all are up to through out the day or week. :) I just love it! and all the cute effects you can add!! Gahhh!!! ^__^ for any readers out there who follow this blog, if you'd like to follow me on instagram here is a link to my page. :) My Instagram! So... tomorrow is Valentines Day. :) I'm excited. I'm going over to Tigers after work, and he's cooking me dinner. ^_^ I'm also brining greek salad, and his Valentines gift(some chocolates and a drawing). It will be really nice. ^__^ I'm so thankful to be with Tiger, he's the best guy I've ever know... This is our second Valentines Day together, and over this past year, my feelings for him have just grown and grown so much!! I love him more and more every day. ^_^ ahh sworry guys I'm getting all mushy. >w< but yeah. I just feel so blessed and thankful to be with such a wonderful guy. =^_^=

I hope all you ladies have a wonderful Valentines Day! You all should splurge on yourself! And... I just want to say, I love you all so much! You are the best friends in the whole world that a girl could ever ask for! I'm so sooooo thankful you are my friends. ^-^ Happy Valentines Day, and God Bless You. ^_^

Product Review for December

Ok so I haven't done one of these in a while. So I thought I would today! ^^ Here are some of the products I've been using this month, and I'll give my feed back good and bad on each product. :) Hope this is fun to read and that it helps you all out.

Ok the first product is an eyeliner called Maybelline New York (Master Precise) The first thing I can say about this eyeliner.... is DON'T GET IT! It's terrible, probably one of the worst eyeliners I've ever used. It smears like no other. I dont even touch it is and just goes all over, on the top of my eye lid, all around the corners of my eyes. Its messy, and oily feeling, and it just does not stay on your eyes good. While it has a good tip for painting on your eye lid, it doen't stay. I haven't had much luck with Maybelline (New York) so I dont think I'm going to try any more of their products for a while.

The second one is the Estee Lauder eye liner pencil. Well I loved this eyeliner, I'm actually almost out of it! It stays on my eyes great, its long lasting and barely smudges at all. It draws on nice and easy, i dont have to apply much pressure at all. I deffinetly recomend this eye liner. :)

Next is the Revlon perle black eye shadow. This eye shadow is really pretty.... but its smudges really badly, and doesn't blend well. If you can apply only a little its a little more manageable to work with, but if you want dark smokey eyes, and just gets all over the place.

Next is Olay professional PRO-X deep wrinkle treatment. I LOVE this product and I recommend it to everyone who's starting to see some unwanted wrinkles on their face and or who also want to prevent any further wrinkles from appearing. I've been using it only a couple of weeks and I've seen great improvements on it decreasing the appearance of wrinkles on my forehead. >< This wrinkle cream is really light feeling, doesn't feel super oily and makes my skin feel really soft and smooth.

Lastly is the three step repair Proactive set. My boyfriends mom gave me some to try out. So far, i'm not seeing the results I was hoping for with this product, mainly because so many people say it works for them. I think though I have very bad skin... I often break out wit huge systic pimples under and around my jaw line that hurt very badly. I've always had bad skin for as long as I can remember. But I will say that proactive has helped a lot, it keeps the painful acnie at bay for the most part, and has cleared up my skin a lot, although I still break out every now and then with the painful acne. I do recommend this product. I think I just have to find something even stronger then proactive to help me. ><

Any way, thats it! hope that was helpful! tell me what you think in a comment below! Thanks guys! Have a great day!

Merry Christmas!

Hello everyone, sorry this is late. I hope you all had a lovely Christmas day yesterday. ^__^ I did!! It snowed on Christmas day!!! It was truly magical! I had been praying for a white Christmas, and God answered my prayers!!! The snow was so beautiful!! Christmas morning, we woke up, finished warping some gifts, then later around 10:30 we read the Christmas Story from the Bible, and then after that we opened gifts. Then the rest of the afternoon we just spent relaxing. I had some fun and took some pics which I will share down below. Any way, just wanted to wish you all a belated Merry Christmas, and guess what! A new year is fast approaching! What will be your new years resolutions for this year? I haven't thought about mine yet, but I'm pondering some new ideas as we speak. :) I can't wait to see everyone at the Christmas/New Years Eve party! I miss you all so much, and it will be so nice to have us all together! Love you all, and hope you have a wonderful rest of your Christmas break.
Sincerely Cheryl. ^_^

Dreaming of a White Christmas!

Oh I am hoping and praying for a White Christmas this year!!! I really really want one! I even said a prayer the the other day, and I'm going to continue to pray for one, I know God hears prayers, maybe if enough people prayed for a white Chrsitmas, we would get one here in Oklahoma! ^_^ Lets all pray together! They said on the news that its going to be a warm winter this year! At first I was happy but more and more lately that has been upseting me. I actually sort of do want a cold winter! Also someone metioned, and its a good point, that when we have warm winters it doesn't kill off a lot of bugs, so in the spring and summer there are tons and tons more of them!! YUCK! I dont want more bugs! I'll admit that is one of the reasons I like winter is that there are no yucky bugs. :P

I really want snow guys!! lots of it, or even littls frosts or flurries because I want to sit by the fire and dink hot cider, tea, or hot cocoa; read a book and listen to christmas music. We just decorated our house for Christmas! Its so cozy! I love it!! I love all the lighs on the tree, and my mom put up lights in the kitchen! I even put up lights and docorations in my room this year too! lately... I've been having thoughts... like I am so excited for one day to have my own house and to decorate it with the man I love. I hope so much that someday that will be with Tiger. :) I want to get a real Christmas tree, go to a tree farm and actually pick it out, and then decorate the tree together with our first ornaments that we picked out for it. ^^ I want to invite people over and we can all sit by the fire, I'll make cakes and cookies, and have lots of different beaverages, and have warm scented candles going. Ahhh!!! Some day hehe some day... ^^ This time of year always brightens my mood and spirit. I'm so excited for our Christmas Party! I miss you all so much! Hope you all are doing well. :)