"There is something different in your voice today... seems far off and distant, like you were lost in another world."
"Yes" she says. "I remember vaguely a place I only dreamed of, strange things, like castles in the sky, clouds that never ended, and a girl with blue hair... These were things I once new."
"Dont stop dreaming." then he was gone.
I once long ago had a marvelous dream of creating Cloud Kingdom... some where along the way, I let others expectations of me get in the way, and I started going after their dreams instead of mine. I can't let go of my dreams. Its been so long since I've even thought about Cloud Keepers. I know this is my destiny. I need to create it, some how, some way. I can't really explain it... but I always feel it there. My mom made me go down her path for my life, and I wasted perhaps 2 years going to UCO. I dont know where only an associates degree will take me, but if I can learn the skills to animate by myself I will just create Cloud Kingdom at home, by myself. Im going to put it on youtube, and pray it becomes a hit, you know, like how that one guy made Dead Fantsy. I want to do that, put my stuff out there, and some how get work from it. Maybe some one would see it, like it, then offer to make it into a well made movie? How amazing would that be?! Any way... its really the only plan I've got. After I get my associates degree I have no idea what Im going to do. All I know is I have to make Cloud Keepers.
And to do that, Im going to need the right equipment. So Ive decided Im going to save up for it. Im saving up for a Cintiq21U Wacom drawing tablet, a Mac home computer, Photoshop, and Maya. I dont know how much Maya is going to cost, but I know for the other 3 its going to come to about $4,200. Its a lot, but I think it will be well worth it for my future. Im going to work hard for it. Im thinking of getting a second job to help as well. Im not going to give up on my dream. I really want this. ;_; Everyone tells me I need a Bachelors degree, but what good will that do? *sigh*... Ive been feeling down lately. My life is still not where I want it to be, Im not who I want to be yet, and Im still not 100% certain of what I want out of life, other then knowing I want to make Cloud Keepers. Im discoving more of who I am everyday. Im a completely different person then I was even 2 years ago. Some how, I feel Im starting to become more like Merina, the girl in my made up world who I only wished I was like. When I look in the mirror, I can almost see her looking back at me. :) As weird as that sounds. lol! XD I still have a long way to go, and learn. But I feel just a little closer.