Sigh... today’s been well blahh... and yesterday... no better. My mom has been really smothering me lately, like to the extreme. She controls me and what I do so much. Like last night... ugh.... it’s a long story, but pretty much my mom got mad at me for the dumbest reason, and controlled me so I wouldn't go to wallmart with Tiger. I feel like a bug being squished under her shoe sometimes... or well all the time. She has controlled me my whole life. Most of the time I can brush it off cause I’m used to it, but other days it just really wears on me... sigh... and then today in my 3D animation class, we have been working on this animation project, and I’m on a team with 3 other people, and well one of the guys in the group was really rude to me. I wanted to snap back at him and be rude back, but I had to hold it in. sigh... it’s just frustrating some times. I’m not mad at him or anything, I think it was also just a mixture from last night, and then being tired this morning, and well, I’m just also having low self esteem day... feeling ugly. blahhh.... it’s been a while since I have felt low self esteem, but we can’t be strong all the time right? :/ sigh... I’m just stressed right now with financial problems. First off at UCO I need to transfer my OLAP over to Francis Tuttle for next semester, and I went over to financial aid to ask how to do that, and no one could help me. They just told me to ask my teacher, but she didn't know either... ugh... and like seriously right now I’m really low on money, what with buying gas all the time, paying my car insurance, phone bills, car problems, I had to get my car fixed two weekends ago, now I need to have the oil changed. I owe my mom 100 dollars, and now I have to help pay for one of my friends bachelorette parties, and it’s just frustrating because they have bought all this dirty stuff for the party that I have to pay them back for. I never wanted to buy dirty stuff in the first place; I think it’s dumb and totally unnecessary. ugh.... I want to have more money saved up so I can buy Christmas gifts. I just hope I can somehow save up more before Christmas. Luckily in one week I'll be able to work more and get more hours in, so hopefully that will help. sigh... sorry for the totally emo post... I just had to get it all out.
So I've decided, and you all can hold me accountable. >< I am not ever ever going to cut my hair again for 2 years. Like I'm serious, no haircuts, no me cutting it myself unless absolutely necessary such as to shape my bangs better until they grow out longer. But I really want long long hair. Just for one time in my life I want it to be really long. Cause once I get older, long hair will be hard to maintain and won’t look as good, so I really want long hair when I'm younger. So I’m going to try really hard to grow it out for 2 years without cutting it. I'm going to take good care of it, put lots of hair moisturizing hair masks and what not on it. I just love long hair, it’s so pretty! And I also want to grow out all my layers and bangs. Here's some pics of how long and what I want my hair to look like. ;_; Sorry again for the emo post, thanks for reading, and I hope you are all having a great day and week. Love you all!