WHY SO MUCH??? ARGH! X(

So I really have been saving up for a Mac computer for quite a while now. Both my home computer, and my laptop are insanely slow... especially my laptop. Its name is Malasis for a reason. -_- any way! yeah, but its taking forever! lol! Macs are like 1000+ dollars! X_X and and... ever since I've been working with Photoshop at Francis Tuttle... Im falling in love with it, and want it really badly, but I want it legally!! ;_; and its soooooooooo much money. Gaaaaaaaahhhh.... like $1000 I think. But I'm going to do it. Im going to work hard for what I want, save up, and eventually get it. >< Im determined. One step at a time.

But seriously I love Photoshop! It really is such a strong program! I had no idea all the things you can do on it! It's amazing! ;w; and Im loving Francis Tuttle. I haven't actually been learning animation yet, but Ive been starting out learning Illustrator and Photoshop, then after those, I get to move onto 2D animation! Woot! Im so stoked! Im the slowest person in the class, but what ever! I want to really make sure I understand what Im doing and really try to learn how to use the programs. :D


Im so excited for Izumicon, I started planning stuff in my sketch book that Im going to start working on. yay!! We really need an Izumicon meeting/work day! It will be a blast! <333 love you all, and hope you are doing well! Stay strong in the Lord! ^_^

I kind of want to do an Adventure Time Cosplay! LOL! XD

When I was little, I used to pretend I was an Indian.

When I was little, I had this cute little Pocahontas like dress, and I would go out in my yard all day, and not come inside. I'd stay in the woods, and make face paint out of rocks. I'd take soft rocks, get some water, and rub them till they turned into a clay liquid then paint stripes on my face. I had a little secret spot in the woods by my house, hidden by lots of wild brush and scraggly trees. There was a rock there and I would write on it with the clay paint as well. I would look for interesting treasures, like pine cones and feathers, and I would pick huge black berries. I was so blessed to have such a free child hood, to explore, and live in such a beautiful place. I'll never forget those times. :)

You might be wondering why I'm talking about this. Well on look book today, I found this girl who has the cutest fashion I have ever seen! I love every single one of her outfits. And all of them reminded me of my childhood, of those times when I was pretending I was an Indian. Her style is so earthy, nature feeling, free, cute, pastel, and Indian looking, I just love it! I really LOVE her style! Next time I go Goodwill shopping Im going to look for more Indian looking clothes, and earth toned clothes. ^^ and hehe, Its cute cause I'm dating a Native American. The more I see of his culture and learn and know about it, the more I'm beginning to appreciate it, and like it more and more. :) I love nature too, and growing up in the forest in C.A. really made me appreciate it even more. Sorry this is all so random. Here is a drawing I drew for today. Its of one of her outfits. I drew it with a Sanguine pencil. I think it gave it a nice earthy feel. :) Hope you like it.

Oh and here are some of my fav pics for the day! and some outfits from that girl I was telling you about. Oh, and here is her lookbook as well Ashlei L.

Its going to get cold tomorrow!

Heres a drawing for today. :) Im so excited for the Fall! :D

I wish things made more sense

Hey everyone. Its been a while since I posted. >< Today I finaly got to see the inside of my b/f's house. XD He has never ever invited me over, and finally did tonight for dinner with his family. It went pretty good I think. And his house was very nice. :) *sigh*... some times I do feel out of place though. Like his house was very Native American theamed, which is not bad at all of course! thats not what I mean, but like at dinner... Im so white, and I sort of felt out of place... just a little. Idk... I think his parents like me so thats good. :) but yeah... some times the different race thing still bothers me a bit. I feel I dont belong, even though Tiger says I do... and some times I just feel scared. I feel every thing is happening to fast. I think he is really in love with me, and wants to marry me. It just scares me. Im not ready for any of that... I'm just now about to start my career. There is still so much ahead of me. I feel Im sort of in a blur and I cant see what to do, or what Im doing. Its just so confusing. I dont know what love is... and I honestly dont know if Im in love. I honestly dont want to fall in love with any guy yet. I just feel like its too soon ya know? :/ any way... I'm just still confused about every thing. Can you guys pray for me? ;_; OMG! Peter Pan this weekend! I cant wait! I just want this week to go by fast! D: and Next week is also, the starting of Francis Tuttle! Im actually feeling nervous... :( Well talk to you all soon. take care! and God Bless. ^_^

This was the outfit I wore today. :)

Oh! and LookBook finally has open registration! You all should join and post your outfits! Its really fun! ^^

I'm sorry guys... I failed...

So I pretty much failed at posting a drawing every day... It was way harder then I thought to actually find time in every day to put aside for drawing. :( Some times there were just other things to do that were more important. But I still have been drawing, just haven't been able to post every day. I think out of the several days I haven't posted, I haven't drawn 2 days. >< I am ashamed of myself. I'll work harder. ;_;

Post for today #2 XD

More gaia avi art. XD I doodled some other things today, but I'll just post this. :) It's almost the weekend guys! >w<