The Blurred Pages

Hello everyone, its been a while since I've written a blog. Im sorry. >< well things have been blurry lately... a lot has been going on. Im torn between staying at the day care, or taking this other job that one of my friends moms offered me. If I were to take the job I'd be starting right after Spring Break... idk... it seems so fast... and saying goodbye to the kids would be so hard, and breaking the news to Sharon, (my boss) would be so hard... I know shed be really disapointed. :( idk... its a tough call... Because my mom says I should take it, because Ive been at the daycare for 2 years now, and I need to try a different job, and this would be a really good one to try, because its an office job, and its right here in Piedmont. Its close and they close at 5, so I'd still have a life. I mean this is a really great opportunity, I dont think I should let pass... But Im so scared to leave the day care. Its all Ive ever known for so long.. and Im really attached to the kids, despite how much I complain about hard days and what not, I still love those kids. :( *sigh* Im just at a loss right now. And I dont have much more time to make up my mind on what I should do. Can you all pray for me, I really need Gods wisdom for this decision.

Other stuff thats been going on... some of you may know about it... but stuff with a guy. A lot of you may know who Im talking about, but I wont say his name on here just in case people are reading this that I dont know about. But any way... things have been blurry in this area as well. He really likes me, and wanted me to give him a chance, so I said ok and last Saturday we went on a date. I mean it went really well and I had a great time. But even so it didnt mean I wanted to start dating or anything. Im still not even sure if I have feelings for him, other than friendship. Lately I think hes been taking it a bit far... :( like asking me if Id say anything if I was ready to date. Honestly at this point in time I dont want a b/f. It'd be nice yes, but its not really whats most important right now in my life. Whats most important to me is that my relationship with Christ has drifted, and Im trying to get back right with with God. And haveing a b/f would be a distraction. Any way... I finaly realized this morning that things are getting to far, because last night I had a dream that he was delivering gifts to me and calling me sweetheart, but in the dream I was feeling sick about the whole thing. Thats a pretty big sign ya know? If Im even dreaming about it. I'm just going to pray that God gives me the right words to say to him I guess... :( *sigh* I always seem to get myself into messes. :( I feel like a bad friend too... Im really at a loss lately...

well I guess on a lighter note I'll talk about some other things. Not everythings been bad lately. I made a new friend at college, her name is Aika. She is from Japan, and she is so kind! ^_^ Im really glad that we are friends. I hope that I can witness to her some time. :) Idk if she's a Christian, but I dont think so. So Ive been feeling a calling to witness to her after we become better friens. :)

lol! lately Ive been having miso soup for lunch every day. Mmmmm... I love miso so much! x3 Well I think thats all for now. Hope everyone is doing well. Love you guys/galls. lol!

Love Cher-Cher Chan ^_^

Happy Valentines Day!!

Goodmoring beautiful world! And "Happy Valentines Day!" Today is the day of love, to show the ones you care about how much they mean to you! Today I dont have any chocolates or sadly even any cookies to give you guys;_; but I'll write you a short story instead. ^^


The sun rose pink in the sky that Valenintes Morning. A world of happy lovers eager to surprise their loved ones awoke and dashed around their houses getting ready for the day. Not one looked out the window at the beautiful sky. A man paid no attention to the lonely girl sitting at the caffe as he rushed to work with a huge bundle of flowers for his g/f. She didn't notice the guy sighing while sitting under a tree and eating his last bit of lunch. The school systems didn't care as they made many teens feel bad when they didn't get a rose delivered to them in class from someone special. The world didn't care as they bombarded the television with commercials of things to buy buy buy for your sweet heart. Not one word was said to those who had no one, who were going through tough times in their life or relationship. And again no one looked up at the sky. Finally as one girl was walking out of her class, as the day was setting and her heart was low. She said a prayer to God, and suddenly a strong warm wind picked up and she looked up at the sky. The sky that had been a beautiful pink in the morning was now turning into a lushous red and purple in the setting afternooon. She stood there mouth agape in wonderment. God was speaking to her through the vibrant colors more clear than any valentine gift ever could, and the worlds that rang through her heart from God were, "I LOVE YOU, I love you every day not just once per year, every day, all you have to do is look at the sky and in your heart."

Happy Valentines Day everyone! ^^

The last flower to bloom will be the rarest and most beautiful of all

Hello everyone. ^_^ Thought I'd write a quick post before church. How is everyone? ^_^ Guess what tomorrow is? Valentines Day! :3 Im excited surprisingly. I hope you all have a wonderful day tomorrow. :)

Yesterday was so fun, Becky and I went over to Matties and we had a Valentines Day party. We baked cupcakes and cookies and decorated them with adorable frostings and sprinkles. It was a wonderful time. ^_^ We laughed our heads off over the funniest stuff. XD "I love asian dramas, but I dont want to be in one."- Becky. Rofl! man... good times. XD Im so thankful for all my friends. God has truley blessed me. ^_^ I'm going to surprise my friends today at church and tomorrow with some of the goodies we made. I hope it will brighten up their day. :)

I'll post another post for tomorrow since of course, it is V-day. :3 any way hope you all have an amazing Sunday and spend it with the Lord. ^_^ God Bless, love Cheryl.


Oh and Im going to dress up for Valentines Day tomorrow. ^.^
Heres some pretty outfits that I think look Valentineish. :D

Whats Really Important

My dear friends... What is most important in your life?

When I asked myself this question... I honestly couldn't say that it had been God in my life.... I'm ashamed to tell you what had been most important to me. I'll start with this. All that has been on my mind for the past couple of weeks, and heres the list.

Getting better at drawing(365days project), anime, cosplay, my weight, my hair, things I wanted to buy/try, wanting a b/f,... the list goes on... want to know what was near the very bottom... my quiet times, my time in prayer, my relationship with God, witnessing... those were only but rarely on my mind... horrible and sad isn't it? Its so easey to get so caught up in this busy busy world with things, stuff, advertisments, that are constantly pushed at us. All these things had become my idol, and Ive been spiritualy sick (luke warm).

My dear friends... we are in the End Times. And we are running out of time to witness and grow closer to God. Think of your non saved friends. Think of their faces right now. If they dont get saved they will go to hell, burn for eternity in fire, and be in anguish and pain, in complete separation from God. Do you want that to happen to your friends? You love them. I want my friends to get saved and to have a complete joy and freedom in their life. We have to think about this... everyday, the passion and desire to reach lost people should be burning in our hearts. All this other stuff that takes up our time and thoughts... its not even an inkling of importance when it comes to the salvation of lost people. When it comes to our relationship with God.

Now I have some things I want to challenge you all with, and let me know if you want to undertake this challenge with me. We can do it together.

The first one, its going to be hard, but its to read 5 chapters in the bible every day. (Im almost 20 now and I have not even read through the whole bible yet!)

The second one, Mattie, Meghan, I know we all have been struggling with losing weight and excersising... so my second challenge if you all want to do it with me is we absolutely have to cut back on certain foods and beverages if we want to keep the weight off. If we do this together and keep eachother accountable I know we can do this and it will be possible. ^^ Some foods and drinks I think that really have to cracked down on are: crakers of any kind such as(cheezits, pringles, ect.) next sweets and pastries, fast food, and lastly, soda. If we cut back on these or even get rid of them completly I think we will really be able to start loosing more weight and keeping it off. :) tell me what you think and we can all talk about it. ^^

Here's a song that I've been listening to a lot latley that has really helped me and moved in my heart. I really want to share it with you. ^_^

Peaceful Snow Day :)

Roses are Red
Violets are Blue
You're hair is really cute
And Ottomen like too!

ROLE ON FLOOR LAUGHING! XD haha!!

Wow... Today has been fun. I shovelded the drive way. :D it was actually kind of fun in a weird way. lol! Then I read with my mom and uncle in the living room for an hour with no T.V. on. It was really nice. ^^ I finished Stolen Hearts. It was really good! I can't wait to read the second manga!

The rest of the day I have been browsing Deviantart, and me and Meghan made a Christian anime group. :D It should be a lot of fun. ^_^

Then I made chocolate covered pretzels with my mom. Yummmy!! X3 but OH so fattening! ;w; buhhh. hahaha! XD

For the rest of the day I plan on doing some h/w and drawing. ^_^ I hope you all are having a wonderful snow day! Love Cheryl~





I read more of the Never Ending Story last night. Wow what a wonderful book. ^__^

My pretzels definetly did not turn out this good. haha! XD





I love the snow! and this is like my ideal of how I want my hair too look! Sidebangs and length! everything! D: and I want to grow my eyebrows a little thicker too like hers. lol! XD

Products of the Month for January

Its a little late but I wanted to talk to you all about some products that I used last month and what I thought about them.

Last month I used a COVERGIRL oil control pressed powder for my foundation.

Hm... what I thought about this product? I was not very pleased with it. When I wore it I felt like I had a layer of gunk on my face, clogging my pores. I felt like my skin couldn't breath. It just over all felt aweful. At the end of the day my skin felt so dry, dull looking, and flaky. I do not recomend this product. I do recomend however to use a liquid foundation. This was my first time to try a powder product, but I dont think I will go back to it. Even with a differen't product.

Next I used a Pantene shampoo and conditioner on my hair.

I also was not pleased with this product. The Pantene type I used was sopost to stop breakage and help to strengthen your hair. I bought it simply becuase of this because I have bad split ends, breakage in my hair, and its really weak. This product if anything I feel worsened the condition of my hair. My hair feels really dehydrated and dull, and its not shinny. My hair is still breaking a lot, and my hair just feels so dry. This product I think is to harsh on my hair. I don't recomend this product. If you have had good results with this product then please disregard this. Everyone has different hair types after all. :)

Next I bought a N.Y.C Eyeliner Duet pencil.

I did not like this product at all, and I highly recomend not buying it. I was very upset with this eyeliner. This pencil came with on one side a black eyeliner, and the other side was a cream color. The black side works fine. But the cream color, aweful! It did not work at all. Even when I pressed really hard, which hurt my eye, it did not work; very upset by this.

Now on to some good products I liked this month.

First one was the Clean & Clear Morning Burst Shower facial.

I liked this product. I used it very often in the shower. It really exfoliated my skin and made it feel clean and fresh. It was a little harsh some times and would over dry my skin, but I think that was because I used it to often. You are only sopost to use it maybe 4 times a week.

The next one is a Clearasil Daily Face Wash.

Mattie actualy told me about this one, and I really liked it. It was very simple and did a great job of cleaning my face of makeup and dirt without over drying my skin. I dont think my skin has ever felt dehydrated after using this product. :)

So there you go. I hope this has helped you in any way possible when choosing new products. ^_^ I'll post more products at the end of this month that I have used. Thanks so much for reading. :D Best of Luck! :D