Strange Things In the Midst

Strange happenings have been bewildering me as of late. Some times I feel Im am always dreaming. The other day, I felt an earth quake. My whole room shook, not hard, but enough that I could feel it. When I asked my mom if she felt it too, she had not. I hear rummbling sounds and distant animal calls... The nights are getting colder, and tea sounds good with each new dusk. Last night I had a dream I was Merina Sky, searching for something, but I never did find what I was seeking...

I love Jasmine tea... It warms my heart. I have a stange urge to want to build a castle, a little one, right beside my garden. Im going to look into how to build with cement and large rocks. ♥

P.S. I think we should have a poetry reading soon. ;)

I'll always be a friend that is here for you.

I was going through my old itunes library today when I came across the Final Fantasy 9 sound track. When I started listening to it, so many memories started flodding my mind. FF9 was a huge part of my child hood. I pretty much grew up with this game. It's really really special to me, I used to play it all the time with my sister and brother. I have so many wonderful memories. I just feel so close with all the characters in the game too. The story line is so rich, and each character has a background and personality, and through out the game each charcter finds out things about themselves, discovers who they are, and what they are seeking. FF9 is truly my most favorite FF and video game of all time. It will always be my favorite. ^^

Any way! While listening to the music I got inspired to draw some fan art! I always like to imagine that the characters were really close friends. In this picture it is Princess Garnet and Freya. Freya is a girl, though its hard to tell. lol! I just like to imagine that Garnet and Freya were really good close friends. And I drew this, its sopost to be that Garnet hasn't seen her best friend Freya in a long time, and they are hugging after being reunited. Freya is crying because she missed her dear friend and is thankful and happy to see her again. :)

Im eventually going to color this. lol! :D

Finished Vocaloid Art for Izumicon! :D

Hey everyone, here is my finished vocaloid piece for Izumicon. It took me forever. LOL! What do you all think? :D It was my first time to use Photoshop. So some parts are a little sketchy. haha! but I'll eventually get more used to it. ^^

Oh!! and I've been like obsessed with this song lately! I want to so badly learn this dance!! I was practicing last night, but its so hard!! D: There is a slower breakdown version of it on Youtube that is soooo helpful. But its still a bit too fast for me. lol!! XD

Favorite Artist of the Month (October)

Ok... I stumbled across this artist today, and Im so very glad that I did! 0-0 I dont think ive ever just like gasped outloud when I saw art before, but when I saw this, I did. It seriously left me breathless. *_* Yu Cheng Hong's art is AMAZING!! man.... It makes me almost sick how good they are. hahaha!! Here's some of my favorites, but you can check out more of his(I believe the artist is a guy) at his website. :D Yuchenghong.com

Oh and you should listen to this amazing song I found the other day while you look at his art work. :D

I thought I'd take a shot at drawing something other than people. What do you think? :D This is Sky, my new wolf/fox character. :)

Lets Take a walk in the Woods :)

Hey guys, I have some time before my class so I thought I'd post a blog. :) How is everyone doing? only 3 weeks till Izumicon! Any one ready yet? Im not! I mean Im ready to go to a convention, but not ready for the art table. lol! XD I've been working hard on some new pieces Im going to try and sell. But I need to draw a lot more. buuuh! haha! ^^ Im so excited, I have a good feeling about this year. ^^

I had a weird breakdown sort of this week. I was getting really angry for no reason, and I think it was becasue I wasn't right with God. So last night I took time to read my bible, pray, and just read a book. :) It was so nice to get away from technology for a while. I dont realize it some times, but Im constantly around it, either my phone, or computer. My life like revolves around it some times, and it can become over whelming at times. :( So, guess what book I started reading again?? The Ancient One! I can't help it, I LOVE this book! If you haven't read it, I highly recomend it. Its seriously one of the best books I've ever read. ^^

Any way, haha, I keep putting off turning in my application at Dollar General. Im kind of scared, Im scared they wont hire me because I'll have to ask off a couple of days. But I really want that job, its close to home, it'd be great new experience, and it'd be in Piedmont, a place with relatively kind nice people in a small town, and most important, I need the money! LOL! So I think Im going to... turn it in tomorrow before I go to work. gahhh! Wish me luck!! I'll have to tell them about the days I need off, but maybe they will still hire me.

So...... I probably wont buy this for a while... but its something Im thinking of buying after I save up for a imac, tablet, photoshop ect... lol!! XD Check out this fashion magazine!! Isn't it beautiful?! Lula I really kind of want it. lol! XD And I think its a reasonable price. Like $82 for a 12 month subscription. So like less then 10 dollars a magazine a month. :D wahh... haha!! I think Im too into stuff... -__- I need to work on this.

Ohhh!! the new Studio Ghibli movie is out now in Japanese. Its called Arrietty or the Borrowers. Its based off the book the Borrowers. Im so excited! I think they have the whole movie on youtube in Japanese. I'm thinking of watching it this weekend! And man the music score in this movie is amazing! I've been listening to it a lot lately. It's very celtic Irishy sounding, and since I have some Irish in me, I love it that much more!! ^^ <333

Here is the trailer for the movie!! :D



Any way, this is getting long, I just wanted to ramble. Haha, thanks for reading all that. Hope you all have a wonderful rest of the week, and a great Fall Break! :D

Once when I was searching...

"There is something different in your voice today... seems far off and distant, like you were lost in another world."
"Yes" she says. "I remember vaguely a place I only dreamed of, strange things, like castles in the sky, clouds that never ended, and a girl with blue hair... These were things I once new."
"Dont stop dreaming." then he was gone.


I once long ago had a marvelous dream of creating Cloud Kingdom... some where along the way, I let others expectations of me get in the way, and I started going after their dreams instead of mine. I can't let go of my dreams. Its been so long since I've even thought about Cloud Keepers. I know this is my destiny. I need to create it, some how, some way. I can't really explain it... but I always feel it there. My mom made me go down her path for my life, and I wasted perhaps 2 years going to UCO. I dont know where only an associates degree will take me, but if I can learn the skills to animate by myself I will just create Cloud Kingdom at home, by myself. Im going to put it on youtube, and pray it becomes a hit, you know, like how that one guy made Dead Fantsy. I want to do that, put my stuff out there, and some how get work from it. Maybe some one would see it, like it, then offer to make it into a well made movie? How amazing would that be?! Any way... its really the only plan I've got. After I get my associates degree I have no idea what Im going to do. All I know is I have to make Cloud Keepers.


And to do that, Im going to need the right equipment. So Ive decided Im going to save up for it. Im saving up for a Cintiq21U Wacom drawing tablet, a Mac home computer, Photoshop, and Maya. I dont know how much Maya is going to cost, but I know for the other 3 its going to come to about $4,200. Its a lot, but I think it will be well worth it for my future. Im going to work hard for it. Im thinking of getting a second job to help as well. Im not going to give up on my dream. I really want this. ;_; Everyone tells me I need a Bachelors degree, but what good will that do? *sigh*... Ive been feeling down lately. My life is still not where I want it to be, Im not who I want to be yet, and Im still not 100% certain of what I want out of life, other then knowing I want to make Cloud Keepers. Im discoving more of who I am everyday. Im a completely different person then I was even 2 years ago. Some how, I feel Im starting to become more like Merina, the girl in my made up world who I only wished I was like. When I look in the mirror, I can almost see her looking back at me. :) As weird as that sounds. lol! XD I still have a long way to go, and learn. But I feel just a little closer.

uggghhh....

Ive been feeling sad lately... *sigh* Mattie I completely understand. I've been having low self esteem too, but with my face, and nose... :( Its so dumb, we are beautiful, and we shouldn't be having low self esteem, but some times this world I feel just brings us down because they have this dumb standard of whats beautiful or thin or what not. ugh. Mattie, you are beautiful, and will be the best Sailormoon ever. You dont have to be a stick to be a great sailormoon cosplay. ;_; I love ya, and Im praying for you.


Ive been feeling really weighed down lately... just like to much stimulation from everything around me. I feel restless, and im starting to just feel stressed out again with convention stuff... I feel I have nothing art wise to sell... two drawings, thats it. Im so mad at myself I had so much time to work on stuff but I procrastinated, now here it is, 5 weeks away. Im going to try and get stuff done before then, but it probably realistically wont me more then 1 or 2 drawings. :( sigh... and sometimes its just not fair, there is a girl in my 3D animation class and she draws sooo good! She just whips stuff up even right in class! Its insane... it seems like she doesn't even have to try, it comes natural. I know I have to fight for what I want, and I will. I may not have natural talent but I'm going to get there by working hard. >:(


Any way... sorry for all the negativity. On a happier note I had an amazing God moment today. :) So many times that Ive tried to talk to people about God, I didn't think or know if I was even making a difference or helping them. But today at work, one girl that I had talked to a while back, came up to me and told me she has been doing a bible study, and that today during work, she was getting stressed, and was needing patience to deal with one of the kids, and said she said a prayer and that it was amazing! Then she gave me a hug! I was soooo happy to hear that! It was just, wow, one of those amazing God moments, like God was telling me, that I am planting seeds, even if it doesn't seem like it some times. ^^

Frightfully Scary is it Not?

So in my 3D class I guess every month they have a little project assigned. This months projects theme was diversity and you have to decorate a mask. So tonight I decorated mine, and this is what it turned out to look like. Haha! Its frightfully scary is it not? 0.0 I had a lot of fun making it though. haha! :D I think Im gonna hang it on my wall when ever I get the project back. :3

Any way! Waaahhh!! Izumicon is in 5 weeks! *dies* Im no where near being ready! Im going to work hard on stuff this weekend! >< We need to all meet up this weekend too, to work on stuff. :D I can fri, sat, or sund. :D So I guess just let me know when you all are free too. :D Oh and,

-Mattie, I can help you with Sailormoon stuff, and other coslpay stuff too. ^_^
-Meghan, I found a whole tutorial online of how to make Advent Children Yuffie cosplay if you're interested. ^_^ http://youtu.be/7rdfQ4aJpzg


So I haven't posted any drawings in a while, so here is something I drew today. :) Im so obsessed with feathers lately! Im like even on the lookout trying to find them in nature. haha!

Here is all the things I need to get done before Izumicon. D:

-Make more bows
-Draw more art
-Plan and organize stuff for the table
-When art is done, make prints
-Make sure all my Sailor Mars cosplay is together
-Finish KH Yuffie cosplay

Lets work hard and do our best guys! :D Let me know if you guys need help with anything too, since I'm not really working on much cosplay. :)